Confessions

I’ll be the first to admit that life never goes as planned (my life has had endless examples of that). Life is full of unexpected turns and surprises: some good, some not so good.

And, for those who are close to me, I also confess that I have been a closet stressor about my house. This is only something I realised in the last few days. Having a little devil on my shoulder whispering doubts in my ear was fine at first. You’ll never afford the loan repayments and bills; What if you have to leave your job; You will never be able to have kids until you sell; The choices you made will clash and you’ll hate them every day you wake up; Now the fence bill; Now the rates bill; Now the rain and mud; You’ll never be able to afford a garden; You’ll choose plants that will die in the Ballarat weather; Oh the weather, you’ll freeze.

Now, all that was fine, really! But this week I was organising my birthday party and the added stress just got to me. I tried not to over-react to things but I know I did (tears, tears and more tears). It could have been worse (I held back a lot). I’ve been dating a fantastic guy for almost 6 months, and I know he is thinking I’m an emotional stress-head and a silly billy, and I know he rolls his eyes when we are talking on the phone and I’m over-reacting or crying (sorry babe).

But now the invitations are out, I have calmed down (a little). You would think being on holidays would help de-stress, but it has just given me more time to think and stress, and I haven’t had one day of just doing nothing (maybe I’ve been making myself busy on purpose- another confession).

I’m still stressed about the house. I was meant to have an inspection on Friday last week, but it was cancelled (even though I drove into town early for it). The painters were in. And I know that I shouldn’t complain that I’m up to the painting stage. So my inspection was re-scheduled for yesterday (Monday). With the stress of invitations, my inspection was cancelled, yet again. That doesn’t help!

Now, it is re-scheduled, again, for Friday. I hope and pray that the paint colour looks alright and that only two coats of paint will cover enough.

New photos after inspection (I hope).